I've been thinking of 'dropping out' of college, or in college terms "withdrawing from all my classes"
I'm falling behind. I don't like going. Its becoming too stressful for me and I can't keep up. I just want to get a mininum wage job, for the time being. Don't get me wrong, I will get my degree, I just don't know if I'll have it completed in 2 years like I hoped. Maybe I'll work for a term, or a year. I don't know. All I know is college is draining me, financially. I need money, and I'm not getting enough with financial aid. I don't like that my phone will be turned off in 10 days because I don't have fifty dollars to pay my phone bill. I have a hospital bill thats being sent to a collections agency. I have 2 internet bills to pay. Where, you ask, is all my money going? To my rent. To my art supplies for my art classes. To my textbooks. To a decent pair of shoes, since mine were falling apart. To paper, pens, pencils. To laundry.
Life is hard. Especially in this crummy town. City. Mini city? Does 20,000 count as a city? Anyway. The economy sucks, big time. I make a good side cash knitting though, since its always windy, cold and wet here and people pretty much have to bundle up to keep warm.
Only when you've lost Everything,
Are you free to do Anything.
Not true. I've lost everything a few times, and I've never been free to do anything.
Why not, you ask? I'm 18. I've lived on my ownsince I was 16, so who in the world could tell me what to do?
everyone. everyone tries to, everyone does.
This is my complaining, life sucks, college sucks, rain sucks, blog post. Hope you enjoyed. (Will post pictures of WIP knitting projects later today)
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